At the Time of Weakness a Taste of What is Wrong can Taste so Good

This past summer was a summer that I will never forget.  It was full of pain, and sorrow.  It was a true test of my faith, but it saddens me to say I have failed in that test.  This past summer I have lost someone who is very dear to me.  That person is my dear grandmother.  And as if that was not enough, my parents decided to have a huge argument that they came so close to being divorced.  These two things have really brought me down to the point that I had a horrible panic attack and ended up in the emergency room and it was recommended to me to see a therapist.  At that point I felt so weak.  At that point I had a small taste of the wrong.  At work everyone found out of what I am going through, and of course they had to express there sorrow to me through the only way they know how in the American culture, through HUGS.  I was vulnerable and weak, I couldn't refuse like I always have in the past.  I had a small taste of the wrong and it tasted kind of good.  Now, I have lost myself and searching to gain it back. So I ask You Allah to provide me with the strength I need to stay away from what is wrong, and I ask You for forgiveness for I have wronged myself and if you haven't forgiven me I will be from among the losers.

some of my friends might be thinking that I am a hypocrite right now, because they know I don't listen to music. My view on music is not that it is haram (I know some scholars disagree with me) but I chose not to listen to it because i haven't found any good music. In my opinion not all music is bad, just most of them are. one of the good ones that I admire a lot is this one. I hope you like it as well.

The True Valentines day

Usually I am not a fan of Valentines day, because I think it is so pointless for someone to tell us when to love each other, when we are spouse to love each other every day, every hour, every minute, and every second, but today is a special day indeed. Today is what I consider the true love holiday. Today is the birth date of the most loving human being ever walked on this earth. Today is the birth date of our most beloved prophet Mohamed, may Allah's peace, prayers, and blessings be on him, his family, his companions, and his followers to the day of judgment, Amen