At the Time of Weakness a Taste of What is Wrong can Taste so Good

This past summer was a summer that I will never forget.  It was full of pain, and sorrow.  It was a true test of my faith, but it saddens me to say I have failed in that test.  This past summer I have lost someone who is very dear to me.  That person is my dear grandmother.  And as if that was not enough, my parents decided to have a huge argument that they came so close to being divorced.  These two things have really brought me down to the point that I had a horrible panic attack and ended up in the emergency room and it was recommended to me to see a therapist.  At that point I felt so weak.  At that point I had a small taste of the wrong.  At work everyone found out of what I am going through, and of course they had to express there sorrow to me through the only way they know how in the American culture, through HUGS.  I was vulnerable and weak, I couldn't refuse like I always have in the past.  I had a small taste of the wrong and it tasted kind of good.  Now, I have lost myself and searching to gain it back. So I ask You Allah to provide me with the strength I need to stay away from what is wrong, and I ask You for forgiveness for I have wronged myself and if you haven't forgiven me I will be from among the losers.

Jealousy

Problem:
Today's problem is one of the most dangerous one's out there. The problem is Jealousy. My most recent problem with Jealousy, happen to be very recent, in fact it was yesterday. This weekend there was a big MSA (Muslim Student Association) event happening at Virginia Tech. My friends invited me to go, but I couldn't due to having a chemistry exam the following Monday. My friends have had a little trouble finding enough rides so I thought about it and said my brother would probably be interested in going and that way you guys can have my car as well. Everything went well and my brother decided to go, and I was left behind. Although it was my decision, I felt really Jealous of my brother. What is really scary is that this Jealousy started turning into Hatred. I started to wish some bad things on my brother, but alhamd lel Allah I came to my senses and regained my focus, and realized how dangerous Jealousy is.

Solution:
There are two solutions that I have found to work for me:
1) Always accept what Allah gives you and remember that Allah SWT knows what is best for you
2) Always remember the Hadith that the Prophet peace be upon him has said "love for your brother what you love for your self"
If you keep those two thing in your mind always then inshaa Allah you will never fall for the trap of Jealousy

Lying (الكذب)

 



قال رسول الله صلي الله عليه و سلم : مازال الرجل يصدق و يتحري الصدق حتي يكتب عند الله صديقا و مازال الرجل يكذب و يتحري الكذب حتي يكتب عند الله كذابا. صدق رسول الله صلي الله عليه و سلم

our beloved prophet may Allah's peace and blessing be on him has once said "A man will tell the truth and keep telling the truth until he is written as truthful in Allah's eyes, and a man will lie and keep lying untill he is written as a lire in Allah's eye"

Problem:

The problem as you might have guessed already is lying. It is so scary how I lie so much that I don't just convenes the people that I am lying to that I am telling the truth, but I also convenes myself that I am telling the truth. I lie about everything, even the littlest things that I don't need to lie about I just find myself lying without any reason at all (not that there is any reason to lie at all). It is really such a bad habit that I really need to stop. Part of the problem is that your parent tell you never to lie, but what do they say when the phone rings and it is someone they don't want to talk to "tell them I am not here". A message to all the parents please if you don't want your kids to lie at least try not to lie in front of them.

Solution:

Still unknown to me. If anyone has a solution please post it in the comment area.